Thursday, November 10, 2016

Letters 493: It's Not Goodbye


"And if time is on our side, there will be tears to cry on down the road."

- Laura Pausini (It's Not Goodbye, 2003)


To whom I haven't met yet,

            Well, here I am again for another little talk before I am going for my annual month long travel across Peninsula Malaysia & Europe. Hopefully I can manage to say a lot to you in this 493rd letter for you before I continue my daily routine of walking at Penang Botanical Gardens.

             As mentioned, starting from next Tuesday & for the next 29 days, I will be going for another epic annual driving journey, this time covering states in Peninsula Malaysia such as Perak, Selangor, Malacca (yes, the bittersweet state which I once vowed not to set my foot but I changed my mind due to tasty assam pedas & pineapple tart), Johor, the Federal Territories of Kuala Lumpur before flying over to Paris in France (if the migrant riots there cooling down). 

            Will you believe me my hummingbird if I said travel makes one modest? I believe by traveling, I can see what a tiny place we occupy in this beautiful earth. That is the glory of traveling as far as I am concerned. I don't really care what people are talking about like for example, I am wasting my money when the fact is not how much money I will spent actually in my mind. It was about spending momentous time with my mother. I hope one day, it will be with you too.

             Dear you, I can't think of anything excites a greater sense of childlike wonder in me other than to be in new places where I can be ignorant in almost everything. Out of nowhere, I can be like a ten years old boy again, wandering aimlessly tasting great food. I guess this is how my whole existence become a series of interesting guesses. 

              10 years passed by since I started to dedicate a letter a week to you. People said that my life is weird but I guess this is what life is all about, a mystery. To wake up every morning not knowing what gonna happen, whom I am gonna met, this is a beautiful life.

               But rest assured, one day, when I finally met you, you & me will live this beautiful life forever & a day. Someday, love is gonna lead you back to me.


p/s

Until we say our next hello, it is not a goodbye. :)


For the other half of the sky,

The Half Moon Serenades.
10th of November 2016.

Saturday, November 5, 2016

Letters 492: A Birthday for Mother

"If you can love someone with your whole heart, even one person, then there is salvation in life, even if you cannot get together with that person."

- Haruki Murakami (1Q84,2010)

Dear mother,

            You're amazing. I am writing to you with words of absolute thank you not just because tomorrow is your 57th birthday but for everything.          
  
             You as I know most of the time, always understand the little child inside of me. Sometimes, you treated me like an infant. I am sure if you have to choose between catching a flying ball of opportunity & saving my life, you will choose to save my life without even considering how rough the part is in front of you. 

              Sure God created man before woman, but then you always make a rough draft before the final masterpiece aren't you? Don't get me wrong, it is not about saying you, my mother, is better than me. But after all, every guy is forever in their debt to a mother.

               Nowadays, I tried my best to make you happy. We've been through all ups & downs together in our life. 

               Did you remember counting the coins with me on the floor when I was in secondary school so I can pay the Penang Yellow Bus fare to my primary school? I will never forget that. That is one of the reason why each time you asked me to bring you to anywhere with my car, I hardly say no. In fact, we went all the way to Bangkok & Singapore with my old faithful car.

                Did you remember when people insulted me with lots of bad words, you defended me valiantly like a warrior? Nowadays I don't even think twice to defend you if anyone hurts your feelings. 

                I lost the count on how many times I need to rush you to hospital because of your heart condition. As your only son, I was there as doctors tried to save you. God knows how my heart broken into pieces standing alone at the coronary unit corridor in the hospital waiting for you, few hours after I broke up with my other half. But I need to be strong because I know you need me to be strong. I am not upset about it. In fact, I am blessed because I make the right decision to stay with you through that fateful month.

                 Anyway, i just want you to know that I loved you so much & you are my everything forever & a day. i will make sure you enjoy the remaining days in your life, the best way possible. Until then, have yourself a wonderful celebration with me tomorrow.

Happy 57th birthday mom. :)



p/s

Dear hummingbird, today I dedicated this letter to my mother as tomorrow is her big day. But I just want you to know, in future, I will make sure that I will love you & your mother as much as I loved my own mother. :)


For the other half of the sky,

The Half Moon Serenades.
5th of November 2016.