Sunday, July 31, 2016

Letters 478: The Fragrance of Modest Wild Flowers

"Both thorns & thistles it shall bring forth to you."

- Genesis 3:18 (New King James Version)


To whom I haven't met yet,

              Thorns & thistles. It refers to things in our life that bring us discomfort, torment & judgement. I used to wonder whether this term is applicable for someone or something. But as time goes by, I know it does. 

              Dear hummingbird, in our lives, we will bump into someone who will look down on us. You know, the kind of 'perfect nerdy' human that will shake & watch us drift into unknown hole. Their words mislead us into thinking that we have no right to think & imperfect. In simple words, those who do not respect us as a human in equal.

              But I want you to remember this. Take this opportunity to learn from all the people from different walk of life which you met, include them. Never allow others to shape into someone whom they want you to be. I never met you, yet, but I know you are better than that. I am better than that.

              Only throught the existing of all the thorns & thistles in your life, you will learn to appreciate the fragrance of a modest wild flower. At the end of the day, it is not about the person who hurts you, but the person who truly loves & supports you that matters. 
 
                           

p/s

I will always love you, through the thorns & thistles in your life. 


To where you are,

The Half Moon Serenades.
31st of July 2016.

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Letters 477: Of Horror & Love Movies

"It maybe unfair but what happens in a few days, sometimes even a single day, can change the course of a whole lifetime."

- Khaled Hosseini (The Kite Runner, 2003)


To whom I haven't met yet,

            Instead of watching Ghostbusters on AXN, I watched Me Before You. Yes, a love movie. For the past few years, I tried not to indulge myself in love movies because I did not live in it anymore. Once, I heard people said that by believing in love story. we are lying to ourselves.

             But who's the right one? The one who believe in love or the one who didn't believe in love? I believe the latter is the wrong ones. Sometimes, I feel that I am running away from love. I am not gay or the next Caitlyn Jenner. I am still the kind of man that who believes in love & everything related to it. 

             After my broke up few years back, there is time I don't believe that love will ever exist in my life but at the same time, I know it is just a melodrama. I will always be in love with someone. Someday, I will find my own 'Louisa' like William does in the movie. I know that someday, when my other half of the sky shows up in my life, I'll be her real man. 

             Dear hummingbird, I don't care how many times is going to get hurt or how many break up I will encounter because I believe one day, that other half of the sky will seize & love me with all her heart as how I love her. She will be the one that listen to my crazy words & funny craps I said & still think I'm cute. Someone who doesn't laugh at my physical appeareance but instead laugh with me for the silly things we did. Someone who is brave enough.

             Until then, I will live my life as if it is the last one. I will be happy & never give up, for just one more love.


p/s

I am thinking, will you be the kind of girl that prefer horror or love genre? If we ever watched a horror movie together one day & both of us ended up laughing instead shivering, I will pat myself on my shoulder because I know, you are the other half of my sky.


For you,

The Half Moon Serenades.
23rd of July 2016.  

Saturday, July 16, 2016

Letters 476: Au Destin

"Fight for your dreams & your dreams will fight for you."

- Paulo Coelho (The Alchemist, 1988)


To whom I haven't met yet,

             Will you believe me if I said life does not run along a straight line; rather it is a journey punctuated by a series of ups & downs?

            The tendency in us usually is to bemoan our fate. Often we may be heard to mutter, "I am tired of living". Even day-to-day (small) problems snowball into major headache. This outlook should be changed and hope is the essence of life and we should use it for good because lack of inspiration occasionally comes to haunt even eminent persons. 

            Dear hummingbird, I have found the reality in life, that if you hope until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more hope.   

           Perhaps all the tiger in our lives are princesses who are only waiting to see us act, just once, with beauty and courage. Perhaps everything that frightens us is, in its deepest essence, something helpless that wants our hope. 

           Perhaps, life was always a matter of waiting for the right moment to act.
p/s

Exactly three years since my love was torn apart. But I learned I have to start again somewhere. I have a whole future ahead of me. It will not happen right away but time is the answer for everything. I hope time will bring me to you & I hope it will be forever.


To destiny,

 The Half Moon Serenades.
16th of July 2016. 

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Letters 475: Of Silence, Hello & Love

"Sometimes fate is like a small sandstorm that keeps changing directions. You change direction but the sandstorm chases you. You turn again, but the storm adjusts."

- Haruki Murakami (Kafka on the Shore, 2002)


To whom I haven't met yet,

           Nowadays, it is not easy to define the word 'wealthy'. We used to declare that we would be satisfied once we earned a five-digit salary. Being able to change from 'Rapid Penang' to the cheapest local car available (such as my old faithful Perodua Myvi) was in fact, enough.

             Few weeks back, me & my colleague nearly choked on our lemon tea when we learnt that it cost one of our associate parents, RM 25,000 to buy for him a brand new Audemars Piguet watch as birthday present. Even though most of us can afford it but we decided there was no need to prolong that conversation about his watch.

             Young people today want the best simply because parents are prepared to fulfil their demands. Even primary school students are given expensive iPhone 6 on their birthdays before they turned 12. But many failed to realize that money cannot buy time, love, relationships & moral values. 

              Anyway, talking about birthday, for me there is no need for us to spent a fortune on birthday gift. Personalised gifts are invaluable. It could be a special handmade gift that you will never find in any shopping mall. It may simply be handwritten paper. Such gifts are priceless, for they speak of your worth to the giver.

              Dear you, it has been a fast-moving year for us. But let us pause to recall the truly fulfilling moments & seek to fill our days with more of such in the remaining six months of the year 2016. 

              Until then, you had me at hello.


p/s

Silence, I discover is something that you can actually hear.


For the other half of the sky,

The Half Moon Serenades.

10th of July 2016.    

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Letters 474: An Ocean of Secret

When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible.”

- Harry Burns (When Harry Met Sally, 1989)



To whom I haven't met yet,

         I have no idea that my life is going to change somewhere in the night of July 2013. Yet, it changed & still changing.

         People around me have seen my best & they have also seen me in my worst moment. There were times in which I failed to see & feel the happiness. There were times in which I took happiness for granted & let myself to be blinded by my own selfish needs. But thanks to God, I found my way back. 

          It has been three years. There were times in which I felt that I was never fully heal. I have been drifting out of love from others in order to compensate this hollow feeling within & perhaps to feel better about myself. But thanks to God again, He was there in my heart. 

         Sometimes, it takes more than one heartbreak to make a guy realize how foolish he has been. Sometimes, mistakes do more good than harm to a guy. And sometimes, it takes years, numerous heartbreaks, plenty of tears to make a person realize who is truly there for him. I think I never regret in making all the mistakes. I never regret falling in love with all the wrong people. For all of these have taught me great life lessons. It makes me realize that if I wanted so much to be with the wrong person, how beautiful it will be when the right person comes along.

          Dear hummingbird, I believe that one day, I do not need to seek refuge in my letters anymore. Because when I met you, my soul has found not a shelter, but a home, in your heart. 

           They said woman's heart is an ocean of secret. I will never deny this statement. There is part of you that I will never know. But I believe, that as long as we know how we feel for each other, we will be fine.

           In fact we will be more than fine. This I promise you.


p/s

I will return. I will find you. Love you. And live without any shame.


To destiny,

The Half Moon Serenades.
2nd of July 2016.