Saturday, June 25, 2016

Letters 473: A Difference A Life

"It is amazing, Molly. The love inside me, you took it with you." 
 
 - Sam Wheat (Ghost, 1990)
 
 
To whom I haven't met yet
 
            Another letter for you & another letter nearer to the end. Lately, I've been waiting. Waiting for inspiration or some wonderful thing to come upon me that would be certainly be compelling enough to warrant a piece of writing.
 
            Love, how it makes us smilehow it makes us cry. While some of us are running towards it, there are also some of us who are running away from it. Heartbreak happens when you fall in love with someone who is running away from love.  
 
           How often have we heard about songs or stories which tell us about the foolishness or blindness which love caused? How often have we felt like a fool who is blinded by love & driven by nothing but passion? 
  
           I believe that love does not make us stupid or blind, it never does, it just makes us more humane. This fact petrifies some of us because when love does not only bring out the best in us but also the worst, we start to feel as if we are spiraling out of control, we are no longer our own self. For some, it is a nightmare & they start to blame it on love.
    
           Everyone is afraid of something. Some think that they won’t be able to face death; some think that they won’t be able to survive in the darkness. There is always something which bothering us but for me, it’s not just it. I think human’s biggest fear is when one has to face & confront his/her own deepest emotion & love is capable in triggering such deep emotion.
   
            Dear hummingbird, even though we proclaim ourselves as the most brilliant species on earth, we are bound with abundance fear & insecurity as well. We are actually masked. But, when we fall in love, we take that mask away & reveal our strength & weakness to the world. 
        
             For some, this is stupidity & blindness. But for me, it makes us a more humane person. A person should not only made of flesh & blood but he/she is also defines by his/her own strength & weakness. 
         
            How can love make us stupid or blind when it is actually teaching us the true meaning of life? A mask might shield you from the reality of this harsh world but how long can it be? You might think that love weaken you out but it is actually toughen you up through the trials & tribulations you might be facing.
          
             So, don’t run away from love, because I am not.

p/s
 
We will each make a difference, one at a time. :)
 
To destiny,
 
The Half Moon Serenades. 
25th of June 2016. 

Friday, June 17, 2016

Letters 472: Belle of the Ball

" But the heart's not like a box that gets filled up, it expands in size the more you love."

- Samantha (Her, 2013)


To whom I haven't met yet,

               Each morning when I pass the old coffee shop at Hutton Lane, the sight of an old lady sitting at the same spot with her old husband truly makes me appreciate life more & more. 

              I think love is the main reason that bring the two together so that they can became one until today. Lots of people end up together as they see it, because of their love. When you are following your love, things tend to go right in your lives. Some people do not believe in love, but many others do. If it happens to you, then you really believe in love.

                   When someone has found their love, then they do so willingly. They are not forced, but a participant in the meeting of two people. If they have been separated from each other then things will happen to bring them back together and this will happen willingly.
   
              It is said that when we participate in a beautiful love, then we also shape fate. This is how it was supposed to be. With a love, the two people will be very happy, though they may have to go through quite a bit to be together. 

      
             Hummingbird, you cannot force your love, it just happens & when you find it then you will know. With a love, there will be signs that you should be together. If & when it happens depend on when your love is supposed to happen. 
             
            Go with the events that are happening in your life & if the love is there you will be with the one that you should be in however long it does take.

             Anyway, I guess the old lady will always be the belle of the ball for her old husband until death do them apart.

           Until then, have yourself a beautiful life each & every day of life

  

p/s

Writing all 472 letters to you was one of the best thing that I ever did in my life. I hope it will bring me to you & I am thankful for the spirit given by God for that, hummingbird. Promise me that one day, after you read all the letters, that you will never give up on me, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Never let go of that promise & you will always be the belle of the ball in my heart.


Yours sincerely,

The Half Moon Serenades.

17th of June 2016. 
  

Friday, June 10, 2016

Letters 471: A Walk to Remember

Khalil Gibran once said: 

"I slept & I dreamed that life is all joy. I woke & I saw that life is all service. I served & I saw that service is joy."


To whom I haven't met yet, 

            Your world & mine is full of fake noise. We often have to stress ourselves to listen to the real words instead of fake noises. But I am thankful because my spirit is not broken by the fake noises. Life is though but I am still counting the blessing from God.
 
               As I walked inside the Gurney Plaza Mall yesterday, the memories came back into my mind. You see, for half of my life, this mall was 'the mall', the mall for the rich & famous.

             Few years back when I was in my junior year at college, going to this mall is truly a pain in my ass. I need to change at least three buses in order to reach here. When others favourite shop is Nike or adidas flagship store, mine was Popular bookstore, not because I am cheapskate but the money in my wallet is just enough for the bus fare.

              I still remember the 16 hours a day work as tutor just to fulfil my own birthday wish of buying Nike shoes at this mall.

              But as time goes by, today as I walk into the mall, the feelings completely different. No more worrying about bus fare (the car park however is the new pain in my ass). No more worrying about whether I have enough cash to buy stuff (the only problem is locating the nearest ATM).

               Dear you, time & hard work is the name of the game. When I see the youngsters came for the job interview at my place, I know that this young blood was me few years ago. 

                These are the kinda stories I like to tell you because in the telling, I am moved to pursuit my happiness in my beautiful world, as I hope you will too hummingbird.


p/s

These past 10 years of writing letters to you have been a journey of a lifetime. I am thankful that God still blessing me with just one more day & just one more chance to make it right. If you ever read all my letters one day, know that i will never be far away.



For the other half of the sky,

The Half Moon Serenades.
10th of June 2016.
 
   

Saturday, June 4, 2016

Letters 470: The Silent Voices



Anais Nin once said:

"Life shrinks or expands in proportion to one's courage."

To whom I haven't met yet,

           It is easy to let our eyes deceive & urge us to pursue worldly stuff. But when we start looking at things with our hearts, a whole different picture emerges. 

           Looking back into my life few years, it was not easy to share. I broke down a number of times because of that big painful lump at my neck. But there were plenty of hugs & comforting messages. I have never seen so many people cry along with me & sending me well wishes messages.

           But those were not the tears of despair. Rather there were tears of hope & joy. By bringing a little cheer into my life, I believe many of them learned the beauty of happiness too.

            Dear you, my life is indeed a colourful journey, often with a little bit of trials & tribulations. Some people have asked me how I can remain so positive in my life despite being surrounded by negativity. Well, I guess I am the type of person that really appreciate each & every moment in my life. 

           Life is not about seconds, minutes or hours but truly about meaning. Life is love made visible. If I can't live my life with love but only with distaste, then it is better for me to sit at the gate of any mosques, churches or temples taking hugs of the people who lived their life with unlimited loves. 

            From the first letter until this 470th letter, I have shared with you many stories about my life, stories thay may not be retold at funerals but they are the stories that truly matter. There was time when i thought of giving up in my search for you but I did not. There is this silent voice in my heart that say, maybe just one more letter, maybe one more letter is all that I need. Well, that one more letter turned up to be 470 letters. 

            But I did not have any regret about doing this. It was a powerful reminder of where my source of strength lies & of what truly matters in my life. Until then, I will never ever give up. Have yourself a wonderful life too hummingbird, wherever you are in this world.


p/s

If I love myself, I love you. If I love you, I love myself. :)


For the other half of the sky,

The Half Moon Serenades.

4th of June 2016.