Thursday, March 24, 2016

Letters 462: Of Half Moon & The Serenades

Dr. Seuss once said:
"We are all a little weird & life’s a little weird & when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them & fall in mutual weirdness & call it love."
To you whom I haven't met yet, 
       My hummingbird, it has been more than a long time since I've penned a personal letter solely for you & it still isn't easy. 
        Your absent has taught me about life & how we all ought to live. I appreciated my experiences so much more, because I know some people never got to. There is so much beauty & wonder in the world & you never got to see it.

        Please accept my eyes & my experiences as your own. I'm currently in the middle of pursuing everything in my bucket list, headed towards my dream. You probably wouldn't have enjoyed it but would have appreciated the idea.

        I've seen so many amazing things already, being in 36 countries around the world. I only wish you were here to share in my adventure. I hope there is beauty & awe whereever you're because you deserve to have beauty in your life too.

        I hope you know that wherever you are, you will be love by me. I want you to know that no matter how long it will be, I will always love you. I will always miss you & I will never give up.

        This letter is solely for you, to let you know how much I love you & how much I still care despite penning 462 unanswered letters. I hope that one day you read this letter, more joy & excitement is brought into the world because of you.


I will love you & I will miss you all the time. I hope you're in a beautiful place at this moment.

Until then,

The Half Moon Serenades.

24th of March 2016.

Saturday, March 19, 2016

Letters 461: Of Fate & Destiny

Dante Alighieri once said:

"Don't be afraid, our fate cannot be taken from us, it is a gift."

To you whom I haven't met yet, 

             Everyone wants to be free; or at least have some choice in life. We all have our professional, family and social commitments. On the other hand, most people believe that they are free to choose what to do, from the simplest to the more complex: should I drink coffee with sugar or sweetener? Do I put some money in the savings or do I spend it all? Who should I vote for in the next elections? Should I marry or not?

              For me, the choices we think we are making, expressions of our freedom, are being made subconsciously, without our explicit control. Could it really be that we are so deluded? The situation is not so simple. 

               For one thing, defining free will is complicated. An operational definition is that free will is the ability to make one's own choices. Of course, we are always subjected to all sorts of constraints in our lives, from our genetics to our upbringing to our experiences. There is no blank slate over which we choose. Still, can it be that we are led to believe that we are the conscious agents of our choices when we aren't?

               Dear hummingbird, when it comes to the choices we make in life, there is a spectrum of complexity and this is reflected in the issue of free will. Some do indeed happen before conscious awareness, and others don't. 

               It seems to me that the question of free will is not simply a black-and-white or yes-no kind of question, but one that embraces the full complexity of what it means to be human.

                I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time. 


Today, always & beyond tomorrow, I will never give up on you.

Yours truly, 

The Half Moon Serenades.

19th of March 2016. 


Sunday, March 6, 2016

Letters 460: Of Voices, Belief & Hope

Florence Allshom once said:
"I used to think that being nice to people & feeling nice was loving people. I know it isn't. Love is the most immense unselfishness & it is so big I've never touched it."
To you whom I haven't met yet,

             Here I am again after one month & hopefully I should manage to say a lot before my bedtime. 

              Did you remember those cartoons where a character has a small angel on one shoulder & a devil on the other? The character is trying to make a decision & both are whispering input into an ear. Back to reality, have you ever noticed a little voice in your own head? Kind of like a built-in life coach, except this voice rarely says anything positive. Instead this little voice in your head whispers phrases like:

'What were you thinking?'
'You should have known better?'
'Don't even bother trying.'
'I knew this wouldn't work.'

               In my opinion, everyone has this kinda little voice in their head. When you see someone with a great attitude, you can bet they have learned this little voice exists & learned how to 'duct tape' it quiet. 

               Everyday, I wake up from my bed with full of hope, wonder & expectation. At time, I encountered difficulties in my work but I didn't give up just because something does not go out my way. I do not belittle myself. Look at any infant. If an infant is hungry, she does not scream of cry once & give up if food does not arrive. The infant will continue to make herself heard until she is fed. Just like the infant, we do not greet the day weighed down with past regrets or future worries. Instead, each day is fresh canvas, ready for exploration.

               Dear hummingbird, we aren't all born with 'ifs'. When we are little, we don't say 'when I grow up, if I can be richest man in Malaysia...'. Instead, we announce proudly 'I will be a rich man in Malaysia'. At a young age maybe we have not considered all the obstacles or barriers. Maybe we do not even know what an obstacle is regardless we do not what belief is & we have it down to our toes. So where does it go? When do 'whens' turn to 'ifs'?

                We are already a quarter through the year of 2016. For the past 10 years, I wrote 460 letters about everything in my life with a great hope that you will read it one day to understand the beauty of this life. Until then, have yourself a cheery life & never ever give up.


If you experience the love, you have to touch the spirit, not the body.

Yours truly, 

The Half Moon Serenades.

6th of March 2016.