Saturday, June 7, 2014
Notes 398: Of Love & Moving On
Julio Cortazar once said:
"We won't make love, love will make us."
To you whom I haven't met yet,
Sometimes, I heard some people said that we all have a destiny & nothing just happens, it's all part of a plan. Well, I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time.
Anyway, like what I was saying in my previous notes, I am trying my best to overcome the disappoinment in love. Mum always said that I got to put the past behind me before I can move on. And I think that's what my 398 notes was all about. I had wrote for you in six years and 8 months.
It hurts to know that someone you loved in long distance relationship, is in love with someone else without you even knowing it. But for no particular reason, I just kept on going. I continued to write something for you. And when I reached the edge of sadness, I figured since I'd gone this far, I might as well turn around, just keep on writing. When I got to another sadness chapter in my love life, I figured since I've gone this far, I might as well just turn back, keep right on going. When I got tired, I slept. When I got hungry, I ate. When I had to go, you know, I just write.
Dear you, I believed I am doing better in my life than some guys at the stage of my age. I have a stable job, property & anything that a guy can dream to have in their life. And because of that, at night or weekend, I went to teach the kids at orphanage or centre, sometimes for free. But as midnight fast approaching, when there was nothing to do & the house was all empty, I'd always think of you.
Until then, put in your heart the fact that all 398 notes here still can't describe how much I wish you can be here with me now. But one thing for sure, I know that one day, you & me, we will share a groovy kind of love together.
The Half Moon Serenades.
7th of June 2014.