Sunday, June 29, 2014

Notes 403: Of Kite, Miracle & Love

Rumi once said: 

"If you look around, you can find a face of God in each thing, because He is not hidden in a church, in a mosque, or a synagogue, but everywhere."

To you whom I haven't met yet,

           Anyone can say 'I love you', but not everyone can wait & prove it is true. For me, love is the reason that makes two people sit in the middle of a bench, even if there is plenty of space at both ends.

           Love is funny. It is like is throwing your dreams into space like a kite & you do not know what it will bring back, perhaps a new life or a new friend or a new love. Anyway, will you believe me if I said that miracle of love does exist in this world? 

           For some, walking on water or in thin air is a miracle. But then, I think the real miracle is not to walk either on the water or in thin air, but it happened when we walk with someone that we loved deeply in this God-given earth.

             Dear you, love is a foreign language where most of people will mispronounced it, but the funniest part is, they ended loving each other more. Anyway, like what I was saying, I believed in love & miracle happening at the same time. 

            I think that's what my writing was all about. I had written 403 notes for six years, nine months & twenty-one days. One day, if there is anything that you need, i will make sure I am not far away. Until then, keep believing in miracle.

Yours sincerely,

The Half Moon Serenades. 

Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Notes 402: The Other Half of Sky

Khalil Gibran once said:

“One day you will ask me which is more important, my life or yours? I will say mine & you will walk away not knowing that you are my life.” 

To you whom I haven't met yet,

         There is no telling how many miles you will have to run while chasing a dream, but I believed a journey of lifetime begins with a single step. 

         That's what life is all about. You see, sometimes your life maybe stormy but it never rains forever. You just need to rise above the storm & there, you will find the sunshine in your sky. 

         Dear you, I've seen better days, but I've also seen the worst. I don't really have everything that I want but I do have all that I need. Sometimes, I woke up with aches & pain but I woke up. And for that, I am grateful to God for giving another chance, another day, to find you & live my life to the fullest. Maybe, just maybe, my life is not perfect but I am blessed.

         And I think that's what my 400 notes was all about. I had written to you for six years, nine months & fourteen days. I stood in the storm & when the wind did not blow my way, I just adjusted the sails. 

         One day, you will be every reason, every hope & every dream I've ever had, and no matter what happens to us in the future, everyday we are together will be one of  the greatest day in my life. I will always be yours. Until then, if you ever read all the notes here, put in your heart the fact that I had fallen in love with you, way before we knew each other. You will be the other half of my sky.

Until next time,

The Half Moon Serenades.

24th of June 2014.



Sunday, June 22, 2014

Notes 401: Of Old House & Love

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow once said: 

“Every man has his secret sorrows which the world knows not; and often times we call a man cold when he is only sad.” 

To you whom I haven't met yet,

         Now remember how I told you that I never seemed to want to go back home when I was young? Well, when I was young, I lived in a house that I believed was as old as Penang. My dad had gone up to heaven when I was four years old & this is one of the reason why I ended in that old house.

          You know, it is funny what a young man like me recollects in my mind, because I don't actually remember being born, I don't recall what I got for all my birthday & I don't know when I went on my first outdoor trip. But I do remember the first time I heard that sweetest voice, in the wide world, right in front of that old house.

         Still fresh in my mind, I was right there, as a 5 years old boy, kneeling in front of my house, begging my mom to move to other house instead of this one. And secretly, I prayed for God to turn me into a bird so I could fly, far & far away. Well, you know what, God didn't turn me into a bird that day, but He did sent me someone, from out of nowhere that kneeled together with me, she was like an angel.

       Anyway, me & her grew up together in the same neighbourhood, went to the same kindergarten, studied at the same primary school & but didn't ended up at the same secondary school together. I bet you gonna assumed that we were somehow romantically in loved, but I can assured you, the relationship is a platonic one, like peas & carrots.

      But as time goes by, we moved to a new place, to a whole new world & we lost contact for few years (mind you that there was no such thing as Facebook in that era). 

      Now, my mum always told me miracles happen everyday. Some people don't think so but they do. As I walked near Butterworth train station, I accidentally hit my head at the huge construction pole along the terminal. Believe me or not, another girl, at the same time, hit the same pole on the other side. And that girl, is her.

      We didn't fell in love with each other. She already in love with a handsome guy & I have my Sabrina, even though mine didn't last for few years unlike hers.  

      Here I am, after 6 years & 9 months & 401 notes, still waiting for you to appear in my life one day. I had to admit that I am not the kinda person that is good with words, let alone good in love. But I believed I'm more than capable of making you happy one day, when I finally found you. But for the moment, as what she said, life moves on.

Yours truly,

The Half Moon Serenades.


Sunday, June 15, 2014

Notes 400: Of Happiness & Rain

Maya Angelou once said:

"Have enough courage to trust love one more time and always one more time."

To you whom I haven't met yet,

        Few years back, I was given a wonderful opportunity to work with a petite but sweet young six years old girl at the shelter home. 

        With glittering black eyes and an unquenchable zest for life, she shows no sign of any mental or physical impairment eventhough she was born premature and have some sort of disability in her movement.

       As sweet as candy, she still have a character of girl who is eager to learn just about everything that she saw with her beautiful eyes. And because of her eagerness, I brought her to Penang Botanical Gardens for a walk.

       Suddenly, she asked me whether I noticed any strange smell around the gardens. Well, I can see that the dark cloud is fast approaching across the hill and immediately I told her it was the smell of the rain & we are about to get wet.

       Jokingly she replied that it wasn't the smell of the rain, but it was the smell of happiness right from her heart. For no particular reason, she said that day is the happiest day of her life. For the first time since she stayed at the shelter home, some one took her out to this beautiful place and enjoying the wonders of nature & she feels loved. 

       Dear you, when I finally met you one day, I'm one step closer of being a complete person. Life for me is about the pursuit of happiness, neverending. But having you right here in my heart, I will enjoy every moment of my life with no regret about the past. 

       For the past six years & nine months, I had written 400 notes for you. There will be no monument about me in future about my work or life, but making you a happy girl & to be your man of honor one day, will be one of the best achievement in my life.

Yours truly,

The Half Moon Serenades.

15th of June 2014.  



Thursday, June 12, 2014

Notes 399: Of Rain & Special Shoes

Andre Gide once said:

“It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you are not.”  

To you whom I haven't met yet,

                There's an awful lot you could tell about a person by their shoes. Where they're going. Where they've been. I've worn lots of shoes. I bet if I think about it real hard, I could remember my first pair of shoes.

         And today, I bought a new pair of branded shoes at the shopping mall, the first in two years. Now, it is not that I am a stingy person when it comes to pampering myself, but I guess all this while I felt just fine & dandy with unbranded shoes that I bought at unbranded shop.

         Like I was saying, each & everytime I went to the shopping mall, I saw a lot of shop selling shoes. There are shoes that you can tied, wrapped, Velcro-ed or slipped your leg in it. There are running shoes, jogging shoes, walking shoes, yellow, blue, red or white shoes. Well, that's about it. I bet it is hard for some girls out there to make a choice when they go to shopping.

         Anyway, today somewhere in the middle of afternoon, it started raining & it didn't quit for two hours & the best part was, I am wearing my brand new shoes. It doesn't matter, I guess this is fate. One day when you finally appeared in my life, we will get through every kind of rain there is together. Little bitty stinging rain, big old fat rain, rain that flew in sideways or sometimes rain that came straight up from underneath. 

        Dear you, life is like wearing a pair of shoes. To keep up with everyone, you must keep moving on. For the past six years & eight months, I had written 399 notes for you. But one day, when you finally appeared in my life, if there's anything you need, I won't be far away. 

Yours truly,

The Half Moon Serenades. 

13th of June 2014.  


Saturday, June 7, 2014

Notes 398: Of Love & Moving On

Julio Cortazar once said: 

"We won't make love, love will make us."

To you whom I haven't met yet,

       Sometimes, I heard some people said that we all have a destiny & nothing just happens, it's all part of a plan. Well, I don't know if we each have a destiny, or if we're all just floating around accidental-like on a breeze, but I think maybe it's both. Maybe both is happening at the same time. 

       Anyway, like what I was saying in my previous notes, I am trying my best to overcome the disappoinment in love Mum always said that I got to put the past behind me before I can move on. And I think that's what my 398 notes was all about. I had wrote for you in six years and 8 months.

       It hurts to know that someone you loved in long distance relationship, is in love with someone else without you even knowing it. But for no particular reason, I just kept on going. I continued to write something for you. And when I reached the edge of sadness, I figured since I'd gone this far, I might as well turn around, just keep on writing. When I got to another sadness chapter in my love life, I figured since I've gone this far, I might as well just turn back, keep right on going. When I got tired, I slept. When I got hungry, I ate. When I had to go, you know, I just write.

      Dear you, I believed I am doing better in my life than some guys at the stage of my age. I have a stable job, property & anything that a guy can dream to have in their life. And because of that, at night or weekend, I went to teach the kids at orphanage or centre, sometimes for free. But as midnight fast approaching, when there was nothing to do & the house was all empty, I'd always think of you.

    Until then, put in your heart the fact that all 398 notes here still can't describe how much I wish you can be here with me now. But one thing for sure, I know that one day, you & me, we will share a groovy kind of love together. 

Yours truly, 

The Half Moon Serenades.

7th of June 2014. 


Tuesday, June 3, 2014

Notes 397: Of The Sun & Blue Bayou

Alfred Tennyson once said:

"This better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

To you whom I haven't met yet,

           Everyday, I've been passing my waiting time watching the cloud goes by. But it seems the journey of finding you, my other half, takes a little bit longer than how others did. I am writing for you, this 397th notes, with a hope that this journey will end someday.

         Nowadays, the weather here in Penang is a bit weird. Sometimes, it rained so heavy, as if the world gonna end soon, but sometimes, it was so hot until I am sweating from top to bottom. How about your place? I hope the weather is just fine for you. There was a time when the road leading to my working place submerged in flood and the next day, the very same road is dry, as if nothing happened in previous day.

        Anyway, I hope one day, I can have an opportunity to bring you to my favourite place here in Penang. Especially during the rainy season, the place is so beautiful, as if two skies above each other and the water shines as if the sun set across the blue bayou. Perhaps, you can try to google the place called Teluk Bahang Dam? I bet you will like it, as much as I did.

        I knew I am not the kind of man whom a girl can be proud of to be mention as their other half but I will try my best not to let you down one day. 397 notes, still couldn't describe how much I am wishing that you're out there waiting for me. Until the day we finally met, put in your heart the fact that there is a lot of thing that is waiting for you to discover it with me one day. 

      Just like the beautiful lake at the dam, I hope our love will spark and this time, it will be forever.

Yours truly, 

The Half Moon Serenades

3rd of June 2014.