Friday, October 26, 2012

The Night That I Want

Mother Teresa once said:

"Bring love into your home for this is where our love for each other must start."

             There was a time three years ago in January when I spent my evening at the orphanage, a young 6 years old girl named Emily who suffered from Asperger Syndrome asked me what did I see at the cloudy skies above (it was raining heavily at that moment)? I told her that the skies is blessing people on the earth with their love, which came in the form of rain. And she asked me more and more, endless.

             You see, for any other people, she is just an unfortunate child suffering from a weird syndrome. But for me, she is part of my skies. My sweetheart, Sabrina once asked me, why I'd always called my lover the other half of skies, and who is the other half? I would like to say that the other half of it is her and my mother, and another half is for all this unfortunate soul like Emily who needs love from someone who can touch their heart.

            A year before, Emily almost died when her small intestine telescoped into her large one. Less than a year after that, when she could talk with great skill and a detailed vocabulary, she mainly discussed two topics: death and God (Emily is devoted Christian).
                    One day, she said to me softly that she is going to die soon. And I whispered at her ears that I am going to have a broken heart forever if such thing happen in future (my girlfriend of two years just left me for someone else that month and I found comfort in Emily). And then she told, I will be just fine because the heavenly God will sent me another girl to loved which I believed true enough because I am loved by beautiful girl in Sabrina.

            Nowadays, Emily still live in my memory even though she is not here in this world. I believed that she is walking in heaven hands in hands with her Creators who going to love her more than me. Emily is more than just a cute little girl whom I had cuddled with when she is a baby. She is my inspiration to go out for work at 7 a.m in the morning and continue to teach at tuition or orphanage right until 10 p.m every night.

             I am 25 years old and I love my beautiful life. I am blessed with wonderful mother and sweetheart, I am blessed with opportunities in the work and studies and I am blessed to use my free time to teach the kids at tuition and orphanage or just sitting and chatting with the old folks.

            And for me, I am just blessed to give another kids a groovy kind of love right and the night that I want, is the night where I can spent doing what I loved, that is spending time with the kids, my mother and the other half of my sky, Sabrina.


To you whom I have met, I am not super rich or super handsome like other guy in this universe, but I wanted forever and always to be your man. A man that you will be proud of and cherished the most in your life.

People always condemned me for showing too much love towards you in Facebook and maintained that I should do it privately. But little that they realized the reason why I did this is to ensure you felt loved every day of your life.

You are my girl. The days I spent courting you for three years, the moment I spent talking on the phone with you, or dancing with you, albeit just for few seconds last April, is the moment I cherished the most in my life.

I considered meeting my ex-girlfriend three years ago is blessing in disguised. She once cursed me that if she left me, I won't have any other girl that going to love me with all their heart. Well, I am standing proud now, having you in my heart and proving that she is the one that searching for the night that she wanted until now.

373 love letters still can't described how much I loved you in my life, now and forever. Always I am in debt to you for showing me that woman heart is more than just the ocean of secret, it is the night that I am longing for, full of stars that followed me home.

In love with you Sabrina,

The Half Moon Serenades.

Friday, October 19, 2012

One Love, Seven Give Up!

Confucius once said:

"Wherever you go, go with your heart."

                We hold on to so many things that cause us great deal of pain, stress and suffering in our love life. At the end of the day, we should give up on this negative aura and embrace change in our groovy kind of love. 

              One of the thing that we should give up is THE NEED TO ALWAYS BE RIGHT. Ask yourself, would you rather be right and let the relationship disappeared in smoke or would you rather be kind and let your ego fly away in love? 

              Second, we should give up THE NEED FOR CONTROL. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.

               Third, we should give up ON BLAME. Stop blaming your partner especially on small matters and start taking responsibility for your life.

               Fourth, we should give up OUR SELF-DEFEATING MIND. Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.
               Fifth, we should give up LIVING OUR LIFE TO OTHER PEOPLE'S EXPECTATION. When we are in love, we must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.  

               Sixth, give up THE PAST. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.

               Seventh, we should give up on OUR FEARS TO IMPRESS OUR PARTNER. The moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly. 

                And perhaps a groovy kind of love is just around the corner for you and your love one.


To you whom I have met, I wished to gift you something and wanted to see the twinkle in your eye when you received it. I wanted to hold you close and tell how much you mean to me, I wanted to look into your eyes and see if you really cared for me, I wanted to hug you tight and feel secured, but then there is this distance between us which restricts me from doing all these.    

My dearest Rina, I see couples fight here who stay together and yet not realize what they have. I do, because you are far from me and only I know that I would be missing it, to just be with you. Just wanted to let you know that you are special and not because I love you but because you are a special human being, even without me. 
372 love letters still can't described how much you meant the world to me and I am counting the moment we will have a chance to be with each other again this December.

In Love With You, 450km apart,

The Half Moon Serenades.

Monday, October 1, 2012

Of Naked Breast, Topless and Cancer (The Jodi Jaecks Story)

Virginia Woolf once said:

"Love, the poet said, is woman's whole existence."

          Well, the month of October is here, and with it, a familiar sight in town where to note the start of National Breast Cancer Awareness Month, people started to do the pink ribbon campaign. Even though I am a guy, I am not ashamed to join this kind of campaign by putting the pink ribbon at my cover photo in Facebook.

           Breast cancer attacks women as young as 8 years old. After failing to find swimsuits that fit comfortably, breast cancer survivor Jodi Jaecks asked the Parks and Recreation Department if she could swim topless at a local pool. At first their answer was no. But as soon as the news of rejection spread across the newspaper, the director of the park changed his mind and allowed her to do it.

           But it is too late as she decided not to go for a swim and  enough is enough. Jodi who had done double mastectomy, that is to remove both of her breast, was told by a facilitator at a post-breast cancer class, as well as Jaecks' partner (Jaecks is lesbian), suggested swimming as a possible fitness option.

           She went searching for bathing suits that would fit without hurting her scars. At one particular store she tried on every type of swimsuit from one-pieces to rash guards, and even men's triathlon tops. But nothing felt right and some of the promoter laughed at her.

           With 2 238,000 women diagnosed with breast cancer in 2011 alone, there should be more tools for prevention and care need to be found.Only then, they will have a groovy kind of new life to fight and to survive the life after surgery.


To you whom I have met, today is the day, a big day for you. Finally, after years of studying, you achieved one of your dreams, that is becoming a lecturer. It is amazing Rina, to think about the first day I knew you as a schoolgirl five years ago, and here you are, one step closer to have a beautiful life, as beautiful as you.

This is one of those days again when I am vying to be close to you and know that it is no way possible with your life in a different states altogether 450 km apart. I know you too feel the same for me at lonely times and when there is no communication on the front where you have to stay up all night. At times like these the only things that come to my mind are your conviction in our relationship and the strength of our faith and emotions for each other.

369 love letters still can't described how much I miss you in my life during our love distance relationship. But, I just want to say congratulations on your achievement my hummingbird. Together, we will achieve the best of life, forever.

Loving you,

The Half Moon Serenades.
1st of October 2012.