Friday, September 22, 2017

Letters 542: Masquerade

"I was aiming at just enough to keep you from walking out."

- Melvin Udall (As Good as It Gets, 1997)


To whom I have met,

          Few days ago, I thought I lost everything when a motorcyclist rammed his bike directly at me while I crossed the road. Those few minutes under the heavy rain, lying upside down changed my perspective towards life. Fortunately by God's grace, yours truly here escaped with only bleeding knees & deep cuts which required tonnes of stitches. 

           I still remember how it felt thinking that I was about to lose my life but then miraculously, I were given a second chance. I will never forget those accident & the Almighty God. Few years back, I might questioned God, asking Him why I had this stroke of bad luck? But nowadays, I just live my life to the fullest. I owe my life to Him who hears & answers my prayers most of the time. 

          Anyway, the next day, with stitches still fresh intact, I went out to distribute food for the beggars, alone. 20 packets of rice to be exact. Unfortunately Samantha, the rice went cold as it took me more than one hour to do it as both of my legs still in recovery process. Sometimes, I am wondering what actually inside the beggars mind? Maybe the feel hopeless or maybe they simply tired with their life? 

           Dear Samantha, real life is not like the Hollywood movies we watched at the cinema. Sometimes, a cheerful man outside can be a masquerade for a broken man hidden inside. I hope behind your ever loving smile, you will remain as a strong girl forever & ever. Be kind, we never know but sometimes, a little kindness goes a long way. Like a ripple in a body of a water, that one act that can change someone else life. 

          I guess that's all I gotta say in this letter. I miss you. Have yourself a wonderful semester break from college there.


p.s

Love keeps no record of wrongs.


Always, 

The Half Moon Serenades.

22nd of September 2017. 

Saturday, September 16, 2017

Letters 541: Enthusiasm

"Behind the mask of ice that people wear, there beats a heart of fire."

- Paulo Coelho (The Alchemist, 1998)


To whom I have met,

             We all need to live each moment wholeheartedly, with all our senses. Finding pleasure in my own mini library at home, watching the clouds after a heavy storm & even chatting with a random stranger give me pleasure. I guess it is enthusiastic love of life which puts a sparkle in my eyes. 

             Enthusiasm took me further than any amount of paralyzing experiences. I always advocate to anyone who seek my help. In my life, I saw many people obsessed about their health, the feeling of pain on their shoulders from the weight of worldly problem & regrets. But rather than becoming anxious about the possibility of highly unlikely bad future for them, I constantly use enthusiasm to sooth this mindless chatter.

               I always believe that positive messages will help overcome apprehension. I have learned to live each day as it comes & think less of the dark menace of the future. Just store the umbrella in the bag, till it rains. 

              Dear Samantha, for the past few days, you took another major step in your tertiary education by completing your final examination in college. I still remember how you approached me for a help last Saturday because you are so clueless in Microeconomics. I've always counted my blessings because God gave you the idea to approach me instead of facing it alone. Always remember, it does not matter if it is good or bad results. You gave your best & this was your outcome. So don't worry because you will always have more opportunities if you work hard for the future. 

               Between you & me, things may change as time goes by but my love doesn't, especially after all this years. Loving you is one of the way I can learn new things. I won't regret any of my ways. I may have given you trouble or let you down, but many times, you still put up with my misgivings as much as I did. 

                I guess that's all I have to say on this beautiful Saturday. Have yourself a wonderful public holiday there. Until the next letter.


p.s

How long is forever? Sometimes just a second.


Always,

The Half Moon Serenades.

16th of September 2017.  

Sunday, September 10, 2017

Letters 540: Closer to Heaven

"How far should a person go in the name of love?"

- Nicholas Sparks (The Choice, 2007)


To whom I have met, 

            I saw tonnes of people posted prayers in social medias. I am not sure how God listened to their prayers but maybe He did. So here I am joining the mainstream people praying for you.

Dear God, lately her mind easily stressed with studies & miscellaneous stuff which I believe bring no benefits to her. Sometimes, the emotions took over her common senses until we ended up in arguments over petty matters. But I am contented here. I never harbor any angry feelings towards her attitude. All I asked from You is a blessing for her upcoming final exam this Monday. Protect her from harm too because my God, I did my best in making her happy & safe. Sometimes her eyes barely noticed it but I really did not mind about it. Finally, let her know how much this love is for her, always.

                Today, you tried so hard to share your joy regarding your previous results & how you performed better than college mates. But I pretended I did not care. Believe me, I cared. I am over the moon for you.

                 This letter is a short one for you as I believed I told you almost everything when we met just now. I wish you nothing but the best in life. 

                  I love you Samantha, always. 


p.s

You are my heaven.

Yours truly, 

The Half Moon Serenades.

10th of September 2017. 

Thursday, August 31, 2017

Letters 539: Of Cocoon & Horizon

"This life is not heaven, you don't have to be perfect."

- Francessco (Gia,1998)


To whom I have met, 

         Once in awhile, I became like an illegal immigrant in foreign country seeking new places & greener pastures. People always asked me why did I leave my comfort zone, face hardship of backpacking & even risk death?

         The truth is I just wanted to get the real taste of life. I did not want to be someone who read about a particular country in the internet & daydreaming about visiting many beautiful places in the country. In simple words, I was keen to get exposure first-hand. Thinking about countries around the world I visited previously, I was successful in seeking greener pastures in terms of experience in life. 
 
          I still remember how I boarded a rough looking wooden boat at Tonle Sap in Cambodia. It looks more like a timber instead of a boat to be honest with you. The kind of junk with an umbrella-shaped roof. The boatman used a plastic rod to navigate along the Great Lake. I can safely said that I feared for my life as no life jackets were provided on the boat. I was wondering how the boatman lived his life through this hardship earning a small amount of money. But I appreciated his honesty & willingness to earn as honest living. 

           Dear Samantha, I hope you will enjoy your life to the fullest in the future. It will be worth the effort in every sense of the word. Experience must come the hard way & only then, you will be well-molded. Leave your cocoon in order to widen your horizon. 

           Randomly aside. I love my little neighbor dog. Sadly, her poodle passed away peacefully few days ago. Her mother told me about her intention of purchasing a new puppy for her little girl but I told her maybe she should go to the nearest rescue center & find another furry friend to share their home. I bet you know the feeling of losing a pet too right Samantha since you owned few pets yourself? 

           I guess that's all I wanted to say in this letter for you. Until the next hello. I wish nothing but happiness to you there.


p.s

No matter how you feel before you went to the bed at night, get up in the morning & never give up. Go on you butterfly!



Always,

The Half Moon Serenades.

31st of August 2017.

Sunday, August 20, 2017

Letters 538: Love Never Fails

"I can't see it but I can feel it."

- Landon Carter (A Walk to Remember, 2002)


To whom I have met,

          Around 10 years ago, I made it a point to show kindness to at least one person a day. You see, it was hard at first to put someone else's needs before mine but luckily, things got better.  
    
          Day by day, I began to understand the joyfulness of extending kindness. It had nothing to do with materialistic things. I guess it was more to the sheer pleasure of seeing smiles & hearing the shout of happiness. Can you imagine, Samantha, the feeling of going to bed knowing that you helped someone or made his/her life better? I did. It makes me ecstatic. I felt like, finally I had a purpose to serve others & be humble. 

           For the past 10 years, I have been helping out at an orphanage every alternate weekend each months. Apart from monetary helps, I gave them free classes while spending the extra hours playing with them. It meant so much to me, to see the little act from me lighting up the orphan's faces. The feeling was amazing like nothing I had felt. 

           Dear Samantha, I would just like to say that one of the best & most satisfying things you can do is to think beyond yourself. It can be small ways such as opening the door for someone or greeting a stranger with a smile. I believe, if you spread your kindness, it will certainly come back to you because love never fails.

          Until then, have yourself a wonderful week wherever you will go. I miss you. :)



p.s

When I have nothing to lose, I have everything. 


Yours sincerely, 

The Half Moon Serenades.

20th of August 2017.

Sunday, August 13, 2017

Letters 537: Miracles

"To find each other & to feel, that is the purpose of life."

- Walter Mitty (The Secret Life of Walter Mitty, 2013)


To whom I have met,

        When my grandmother passed away in 2000, it took me awhile to get what it meant. My 11 year old self stood outside of the old wooden house in Relau while the adults, more mature than me solemnly attended to her. When I was growing up, my late grandmother would excite me with stories about old Penang in her thick Hokkien dialect & gave me RM 1.00 as a reward for listening to her wonderful stories (even more impressive given that she was bedridden for close to five years). I would pretend to lose to her in the game of Snakes & Ladders in order to get the extra ringgits. But after her health got worse, I didn't asked for the extra ringgits as often any more.

          Anyway, the laid her body out in the typical grand coffin according to the Chinese tradition. Lots of relatives came to hug me & I hugged back because it seemed polite. To be honest, it took a huge effort to figure out exactly how I should behave. Should I wept next to my grandmother coffin as some were? Or sitting the uncles outside of the wooden house? Or helping the ladies at the kitchen?

           So when the rest of them followed the funeral procession towards the Sungai Ara Chinese Cemetery, I took the option of staying back in the name of protecting the house from unwanted thieves. I remember sitting at the corner of the living room, thinking that all these people only made the effort to come by to pay their last respect after years of disappearing & abandoning their own mother

            I felt sad. I felt that she lived the last few years of her life alone (apart from my mother & the late uncle who took care of her). Until today, I am still not sure what I felt that day. But I know I did not cry. My mother just hugged me when she returned from the cemetery. I guess some deaths are less permanent than others. 

            Life for me Samantha are already His miracles. Today mark the first anniversary of completely tumor free. I can only praise Him for His revelation of how He works. Indeed God is faithful all the time. For the past few days, I noticed that you are living your life to the fullest. Full of happiness to be exact. There is a little part of my heart that jumped with joy each time I saw you with a smile. But in your pursuit of happiness, Sam, be patience in everything & continue the journey in hope if you faced hardship.

            Until then, have yourself a wonderful weekend over there. I miss you. :)



p.s 

I am thankful for each little blessing that comes my way. You are one of the blessings.


Always,

The Half Moon Serenades.

13th of August 2017. 

Saturday, August 5, 2017

Letters 536: Of Moon & Fairy Tale

"Take her to the moon for me okay."

- Bing Bong (Inside Out, 2015)


To whom I have met,

           Here I am sitting in my office room, on Saturday writing another letter to you. Well, today weather is a bit weird but the view of green grass outside of my office with trees & bushes surrounding it did a huge favor in helping me to relax a little bit after one busy week. 

           You know what is the best part of coming to office on the weekend? Everything is dull & everybody is quiet. They either sat in their own cubicle, read, playing online games or sleep. The only noise is of police cars or ambulances zooming through on the main street.Of course they are going from us, not for us.

            Anyway, last night I went to the orphanage & read for them a story book called 'Sleeping Beauty'. Well, I bet some of the volunteers there did this before but it seems they prefer yours truly here instead of them. God is mysterious. He didn't turned the orphans into a prince or princess while I read for them this fairy tale but He definitely sent them tonnes of beautiful smiles from Heaven.

            They slept on my leg (okay, I am fat & my legs looks as comfy as cushion) as I turned a simple fairy tale into a life action epic again & again. The moment I moved one of my leg, they grabbed it tightly. Can you imagine sitting there for two hours without going to the toilet?

             Lately, I felt that you are too busy with your life Samantha. The silence was a little bit deafening as you went through your exams or activities. So I might as well I wrote a letter for you in case you accidentally read it. Remember Sam, hope in God in case you ever found yourself in deep stress or trouble. He performs wonders & miracles that cannot be counted.

              Until then, have yourself a wonderful weekend there. I miss you.


p.s

I want to make you smile & not wasting the tears.


Always,

The Half Moon Serenades,

5th of August 2017.

Thursday, July 27, 2017

Letters 535: Of Words, Failures & Limitations

"Words are in my not-so-humble opinion, our most inexhaustible source of magic."

- J.K Rowling (Harry Potter & the Deathly Hallows, 2007)

To whom I have met,

          I saw the word 'FAIL' many times especially in the few first few weeks or months of learning something new in my life. Let it be at school, college or workplace. But those preliminary results changed my life. Yes, it took me quite sometimes to recover. Eventually, I learned tonnes of lessons in my life & determined to do better from then on.

         You see, everybody has limitations. You name it, most probably we have it. As for me, I will say my weakness is losing my control over sad stories & failures. Cry? No. It is so much more than that. It is about learning a downfall of someone's life & listening to their sad stories while failed to help them. 

          Few weeks ago, I was forced into facing my limitation in shedding tears & failure. Of course by my client. An old couple told me stories about their hardships. I tried to make silly jokes & laugh maniacally but the stories had to go on. I tried to be careful not to scar their life more. Thus began the endless spiral of working hard to help them. This old couple were as patience as humans could be. However, while sweating through words, I would occasionally notice their pained expressions. I guess this made me become even more resolved to try harder & do better in helping them.

           The moral of the story, dear Samantha? Limitations are a pain, as they pit a roadblock on you. But you know what? Surpass your limits. That's the only way you will ever get somewhere. For me, you have the potential to overcome the challenges in your life & inspire others. People say every humans in this world is similar but I guess everyone is special in their own way.

            Lately, life wasn't all good for me. My mother is not in a pink shape of health due to her heart condition. Frequent traveling to the hospital feel so normal for me this past few days. But yours truly here still in full spirits & positiveness. I put my energy into helping others & thanks to the Power above, I can improve hundreds of lives. Yes, hundreds. Let it be the beggars on the streets, the client at my office or the kids at the center. Love lights up the world, Samantha.

             I guess that's what my letter for you is all about today. I will continue my writing for you. Until then, have yourself a wonderful day out there. In case you stumbled upon my writing, spare a few minutes & pray for my mother. Pray for yours truly here too. :)



p.s 

If you found yourself in the darkness of high pressure life, always remember that God will help those who seek refuge under His wings. 


Always,

The Half Moon Serenades.
27th of July 2017. 

Saturday, July 22, 2017

Letters 534: Fulfilling Life

"Don't feel sorry for yourself because only asshole do that."

- Haruki Murakami (Norwegian Woods, 1987)


To whom I have met, 

             The challenge we face daily can indeed feel overwhelming. But they can take on great meaning when we can look beyond our perspectives at the bigger picture. I am a believer. I believe the greatest obstacles are the one we put on ourselves. 

              When I went to the shelter home for my weekly volunteering session, I saw a lot of lost souls searching for salvation in their life. They felt that God abandoned in every way. Thankfully, we do not need to experience the kind of adversity that this girls & many others have faced repeatedly. But their life stories show me real happiness isn't something that can come from outside ourselves.

               Few years ago, there was a young girl came to the shelter home seeking a helping hand from the operator. Coincidentally, I was there to lend her listening ears. She told how she constantly pursue happiness externally until she can't see & differentiate the rights from the wrongs. She didn't believe that she already possess within herself the happiness needed to lead a fulfilling life. She mixed with the wrong group of misfits & ended up here seeking our help.

               Dear Samantha, there will be certain point in your life where you will ask yourself 'what's the point of it all?'. Take a look at people around you. Their life is a testament to the idea that life doesn't come with a ready made meaning but rather it is something we are supposed to give meaning to.

              I guess that is what everything for the past 8 months was all about.There was some good times, there was some bad times. This week itself was a testament about trying to be there when you needed me. To be honest, I was about to give up regarding the things you asked me for help. I told myself, 'if I told her no, there will be no harm'. The kind of feeling where you feels like the requests throws at your way are just too much to help. 

              But then, after I called you, I heard a soft voice. A voice of someone who put a hope, not too high, on my shoulder. From that moment, I realized that if I loved you so much, your happiness matters to me. So I helped (the Under Armour that I gave you helps too) & put back the smile on your face.


               This is life. I hope I can make a small difference in your life. Until the next hello, have yourself a wonderful weekend ahead.


p.s

Letters are just pieces of writing. My gifts for you are just materialistic stuff. But your happiness is the one I cherished the most stw 


Always, 

The Half Moon Serenades.

22nd of July 2017.

Sunday, July 16, 2017

Letters 533: Imperfections

"This part of my life, this little part, is called happiness."

- Chris Gardner (The Pursuit of Happyness, 2006)


To whom I have met,

           We all expect things to be perfect in our life. But for me, there is a great happiness in taking something with all imperfections & perfecting it into they way it should be. 

           For the past few days, I heard tonnes of complaints from people around me about how life is so unfair. It is not wrong. We have all complained at some point in our life. This people wonder why some are doing so well, while others have to struggle day by day? I suppose it is easier for them to lament about what they do not have than to be thankful for what they have. 

            I've been successful in many ways, there is nothing to hide about it. But at the same time, I am always mindful that I can lose everything in split seconds. Each time people seek my help, whether at my office or at the center, I consider it as a form of trust. With this kind of mindset, I am not only have the make the best of the help, but must also be able to pass on the blessings way after I helped them.

            Lately, few girls showed their 'unhappiness' or 'jealousy' each time I bought something for you. Even a simple bar of chocolate that cost me RM 2.00 can be a source of they mixed emotions let alone the Superdry shirt . But for me, they should not have this kind of feelings. My actions, my joys & my possessions that I shared with you are nothing to boast about. God placed it in my mind as a way to make you happy & it is up to me to change it into a reality. 

              But the reality here Samantha, the world simply drives me crazy in quite the opposite direction lately. I got caught up in the busyness of work, using up precious time & resources. But I finally found a time for you last Wednesday. Somewhere down the line, the simple McDonald's lunch is not just about the meal. It was a three hours food for thought. The kind of thought that warmth the soul.

               Until then, have yourself a wonderful week ahead.


p.s

Lately, I saw with eyes & ears how you struggled in your life as a tertiary student. But always remember this Sam, you are simply too blessed to be stressed. Seek God & He shall clear the path for you.


For the other half of the sky,

The Half Moon Serenades.

16th of July 2017.