"Tell the judge I love my wife."
- Richard Loving (Loving, 2016)
To whom I haven't met yet,
I had been reflecting on the year that was so far. Lately, instead of beating myself up for all the resolutions I did not keep, I've come to realize that resolutions sometimes resolve themselves in their own way & time.
To be honest, I chose to focus only on emotional highs, which often involved thankful moments. You know the kind of happiness that make us to simply 'be a human'?
When I first came to my new work place few years ago, I'd often wondered why many people rarely smiled. In time, fast forward until today, I learnt of their 'logic'of not smiling. I did attempt it but I quickly gave up because being a weirdo made me miserable. So, I smiled over & over again for no particular reason each time someone walked passed me, despite occasional scowls or odd stares I received in return. In truth, I really loved all of them despite their weird' 'logic'.
Beside, I figured it was better to have laugh instead of frowning day in & day out. My attitude has & does indeed impact those clients at office & parents at center. Most of them will say that I talked to them with a positive charisma. Well, they called it charisma, I preferred it as 'marketing skills'.
Dear hummingbird, it was the vindication I needed to stay true to myself, even if it means I am the odd one out there. I believe it will be returned in the most unexpected circumstances. While this may sound selfish, it is better than being a grumpy man, right?
I can only love you with all my heart, but fate will take over beyond that. Until then, have yourself a wonderful month ahead.
Whoever lives in love, lives in God.
The Half Moon Serenades.
17th of June 2018.